Life On The Other Side

The past few weeks I’ve gone through a mini depressive state. I hide it well. Frankly, it’s got more to do with hormones than anything else. I admit that I’m only human and I can’t help feeling angry, upset, or jealous. But I don’t feel it’s right to talk about those things. I can only control me and what’s in my realm. After all, it can’t only be about me, right? One thing I’ve come to realize about myself is that I like attention. For a person who doesn’t crave attention, I do like to have some kind of attention. It’s not that I take it away from other people but I like the inadvertent attention given to me. I guess that’s the vain part of me. It’s the rooster part of me. I was born the Chinese Year of the Rooster and roosters are show offs. So that’s where my attention hogging comes from. Like I said, a lot of it has to do with hormones. Thankfully, it has passed and I feel good. If it gets worse or something I begin to get concerned about, especially after the baby is born, I won’t be calling Tom Cruise for advice.