Life On The Other Side

After only 35 weeks and 5 days, our son was born on May 17, 2006 at 9:39 PM. He was 6 lbs, 14 oz and 20 inches long. The last few days have been a rollercoaster ride. I was diagnosed with PIH or pregnancy induced hypertension which facilitated the speedy birth of our boy. We were fortunate enough to have ourselves a healthy baby boy although he was considered premature due to his gestational age. The whole family is home and happy and adjusting to our new lives.

The past few weeks I’ve gone through a mini depressive state. I hide it well. Frankly, it’s got more to do with hormones than anything else. I admit that I’m only human and I can’t help feeling angry, upset, or jealous. But I don’t feel it’s right to talk about those things. I can only control me and what’s in my realm. After all, it can’t only be about me, right? One thing I’ve come to realize about myself is that I like attention. For a person who doesn’t crave attention, I do like to have some kind of attention. It’s not that I take it away from other people but I like the inadvertent attention given to me. I guess that’s the vain part of me. It’s the rooster part of me. I was born the Chinese Year of the Rooster and roosters are show offs. So that’s where my attention hogging comes from. Like I said, a lot of it has to do with hormones. Thankfully, it has passed and I feel good. If it gets worse or something I begin to get concerned about, especially after the baby is born, I won’t be calling Tom Cruise for advice.